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So work has been kinda maniacal lately, but I've also been given a little bit of a break from my new boss because of how bad it's been. Of course now I'm getting sick with a sinus thing from my parents, who have both been sick for over a week and I saw a few days ago. MY FAULT.
In the meantime, I've been digging out of the last bout of depression and actually feel pretty good. My counselor and I talked about creating a list of ~baby steps~ to getting to where I want to be, instead of making a list of big-ticket wants. It was a great idea because as I accomplish these baby steps, I feel happy at every turn. They're all small, incremental differences, really, but in the grand scheme of things, it's big compared to how I felt a month or so ago. I mean, I would go days without showering and stay home. Now I'm making myself/wanting to get up and shower, do my hair, wear makeup, try to dress appropriately. I'm not just rolling out of bed with yoga pants to go meet someone for breakfast, but getting up early, taking my time to shower, put on clothes I LIKE, doing a little makeup, etc. I'm also allowing myself to spend time inside on my own so long as when I AM out, then I DO ALL THE THINGS. Like last weekend, I was out for brunch with
rozearkana then made myself go to my parents to do laundry, which I hadn't done in FOREVER. I knew if I went back home, I would just sit and watch TV, not do laundry.
Granted, I then caught their bug while there, but ... the progress is palatable and I'm feeling pretty good. In addition to making these emotional bits of progress, I jumped into a bunch of writing sprints over the weekend and got my
j2_reversebang up to 13,000. Though as I started writing the beginning parts, I realized I could not finish it in the ~short~ word count I originally predicted. *sigh* I do this every time! LOL. At first it felt scary because I haven't written in MONNNNNNTHS, but then it was exciting like long before and I am trying my damnedest to figure out where it's gonna go ... whoops.
Hope everyone out there is doing well! Or at least continuing to get better <3333
In the meantime, I've been digging out of the last bout of depression and actually feel pretty good. My counselor and I talked about creating a list of ~baby steps~ to getting to where I want to be, instead of making a list of big-ticket wants. It was a great idea because as I accomplish these baby steps, I feel happy at every turn. They're all small, incremental differences, really, but in the grand scheme of things, it's big compared to how I felt a month or so ago. I mean, I would go days without showering and stay home. Now I'm making myself/wanting to get up and shower, do my hair, wear makeup, try to dress appropriately. I'm not just rolling out of bed with yoga pants to go meet someone for breakfast, but getting up early, taking my time to shower, put on clothes I LIKE, doing a little makeup, etc. I'm also allowing myself to spend time inside on my own so long as when I AM out, then I DO ALL THE THINGS. Like last weekend, I was out for brunch with
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Granted, I then caught their bug while there, but ... the progress is palatable and I'm feeling pretty good. In addition to making these emotional bits of progress, I jumped into a bunch of writing sprints over the weekend and got my
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Hope everyone out there is doing well! Or at least continuing to get better <3333