I've Got My Hands Up So Take Your Aim

This icon is titled 'FOREVER PINING' and it's quite fitting for my story for this year's spn_j2_bigbang ...

Title: Begin to Begin Again
Summary: Years after Supernatural ends, Jensen realizes that his job isn’t the only thing missing. He’s divorced, a lame-duck father, and living alone. He wakes often from long-ago memories of the boots and leather jacket he filled out back when he had purpose, dreams of the connection he had with the one who stood beside him through it all. When Jensen finds a spark of himself while reconnecting with his daughter, he is determined to make this new feeling stick with a cross-country trek in the driver's seat of the Impala.

Even as he’s weighted down by his own growing pains post-Supernatural, Jared thinks Jensen has lost his mind, thinks he has to save Jensen from himself. Jared meets him in the middle of Michigan, yet soon finds himself falling into the same luxurious dream of seeing the country with nothing but time and pavement ahead of them. As Jensen and Jared rediscover themselves and their friendship, they uncover more between them that awakens buried feelings and lights a fire between them.

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In short ... Jensen, fixes up baby then road trips like a mad man, eventually dragging Jared out to join him like Sam and Dean did all those years before. I've wanted to write this one for a few years, or at least just had a really soft, fuzzy idea about it, and now it's finally a story. That still needs more scenes to fill it out, but it's there. :D

In other news, I was catching up on Modern Family and once the last episode aired, Hulu put The Mindy Project on and I was like 'eh, let's see what this all about ...' and two days later, I'm almost done with the first season and am super duper in love with the show. I'm only bummed that I'm so far behind yet have known about certain relationships from random internetty stuff so I know where some things are headed. Le sigh.

Obviously spent most of the weekend writing. (and sleeping) Though of course now I'm all tired and groggy and SORE from sitting around for two days with the computer. And maybe a lil stuck/burned out on the story, but at least I have a lot of scenes put together. At least the important ones.

Got some writing done last night in sprints then today spent about 20 minutes just trying to snag another 500 ... then would go 'oh, you can add out another 100 here' then 'oh just finish this scene' and here I am. Not too shabby when this time yesterday I only had 1400 or so. I think I'll end up with about 4k of set-up before everything moves, which ain't bad as I've already gotten most of the ending written.

I normally hate writing out of order, but I'm at the point that anything to add to the doc is good. How does everyone else work? I mean, I don't outline stuff, though mentally I know where I have to go with certain pieces, but ordinarily, I just have a general idea in my head then run.

We'll see how I do the next few days with plans all weekend ... including my dad's birthday lunch, TV time with the BFF, and a bridal shower (coed, with about 50, and I'm running two games bc I'm a bridesmaid and tend to make promises when drinking wine) for another close friend. Kill me now.

It's that time of year again, when I look at the calendar and freak out that I haven't actually followed my good intentions to write/finish my spn_j2_bigbang draft earlier. Upside is the deadline is on a weekend so I have a bit more faith(ish) this year. I also have an idea I've been stewing on for over a year, maybe two, but am finally committing to because I just have to get it done. Finally. Instead of finishing any of the many WIPs I've got sitting around /0\

So I'm going to force myself to write nearly every day and update this damned tracker to keep me honest.



Who else is in a whole world of hurt like me?

Unrelated, I started Gilmore Girls again ... I had watched S1 back when I first got into SPN, just for Jared, and HAAAAAAATED IT. Especially how Rory was so whiny and Lorelei was the most irresponsible and selfish parent ever. I still feel that way, but now near the end of S3, I'm thoroughly in love with Dean and am hate watching just to watch him get revenge on Rory and Jess. Muwahahaha.